DAMNATION.

DAMN DAMN DAMN.
guess what, my laptop jammed! urghhhh, *tension building up
and now i have to turn on my old laptop that took like 30 hours to start up.
again, DAMNATION.

i dont know whether my mum will get it fixed or not, she's being meanie this lately, dont know why.
and i have to wait another 30 hours just to connect to internet and more of my precious 30 hours just to open new page and so on. *tension buildiing up oh my guddy*

cant wait to get a new phone omg omg omg and this nightmare will be over.
just so u know my current phone is not a smartphone so i cant use it to browse internet. yes it can but like this laptop, its so freaking slow, annoying and so not easy to use!

yeah yeah yeah whatever, i want to talk about school. like duhhh? lately i dont feel like going to school. and ya know what, my final exam just next friday. hah, what a lazy ass i am yeah i know hahahaha.

lalala, boys? not around this lately, hahaha. well there are boys but not my boys to talk about hehehhee :D MAFP , well i missed him. hhaa nuts. yeah i missed him. but there nothing i can do about it, he's like, he's not reachable. i guess thats it. haha *sad laugh*

ouh btw, just so you know MAFP just looks like Dongwoon from beast. and did you know what i do when i missed him? i google for dongwoon's picture. omg IM SO PATHETIC. haha laugh all you want, fine isk isk *sob sob ;((

now to fill up my time, i learn guitar and mandarin. weird cuz i still got time to sit front of laptop, ya know why? cuz i didnt study! hah! i shouldve done my homework and exercise, practise my piano and guitar, rehearsing my mandarin. i did all that except the studying part. so here am i waste hours of my time front of my old slower than snail laptop.

gosh, thats all for now before i jam this laptop and got nothing to sit front and waste my time. hehehe. well i love wasting my time front of laptop though :P byeee you allsssss


xoxo, AQ.

awww so cute ♥

too cuteeee and so sugaryyy, yet funny! hikhik  ♥

guess what? i met MNFH today 0___0

okay act today is my open house day. so i invite some of my friends. and i did invite MNFH. and he came! i never thougth he will come! OMG.

last monday he texted me. he said we should hang out again in future. i was like, duh? seriously? i know la you girlfie going to PLKN. like do you really have to do this. im like, errr okay, and he said he want to see me. then i said come to my house this saturday im having open house day.

so today he did came. and my reaction is. im blurrrr and dont know what to do. speechless also, yes. errrrrr what im gonna do. soon after he left, he texted me. aiyaaa. im scared! i dont want to meet him anymore cuz i might fall for him!! seriously this is shit. i hate this. i even have intend to change my number just to avoid him but eyka prevent me to. this is bad.

urghhhh whatever, im going to avoid him as long as i can.
MNFH, somehow i hope u dont exist.

sincerely, AQ.

AQ story for today!

holla :D

oke straight to the point, my last post i said i'll update any news about MAFP right?

oke here i am to annouce, im no longer have a crush. for the time being. of course. hahahha XD why? cuz i dont thinked i need one right now. im enjoying my life, not interested in anyone. yet. hahaha. and of course i'll update again about my new crush in future. or mayb new bf perhaps. hahaha.

okeokeoke what now eh. hmmm. let talk about danny, he currently going out with a singh girl. poor that girl. she know nothing about danny. urghhh danny, seriously one day im gonna sit down and watch karma fuck you up right in your face. playing with girls' heart. you're scumbag =,=

oke lets move on to MNFH. recently i just followed her gf on her twitter and blog. god seriously, that girl is freaking love him so much! how could he cheat on her. my god these guy are killing me! apak kaw tak ajar ke telo kaw tu jaga pompuan bebaek, reti maen kn pompuan je lebih. bodoh, baek hangpa g potong telo hangpa bg ikan mkn. ntah ikan pun ta nk, jgn kata ikan, anjink babi pun belum tentu nk. bodoh bodoh bodoh. kesian anis okay! you guys have been in serious relationship like 3years something right. but how could you do that to her. poor anis. firstly with me. then with nadhira. omg. fuck you grol. mls aku nk censored dah. kaw tak layak lngsung tok pompuan sebaek anis. not at all. anis if you reading this, sorry to say, you should dump grol. he dont deserve you. 

girls, one day you'll find your true prince charming and he'll treat you like a princess! wait for the right guy and dont give up on yourself too easily. 

one of the reason im not so desperate for boys or into my crush to much cause i think im still too young for a serious relationship. when its the right time, insyaAllah the right guy will come and he'll be my halal prince charming <3

so to muslim, jagalah kehormatan anda :) hanya yg layak atas hubungan yg sah untuk sesuatu yg halal :)

*i like the word halal prince charming, its cute! i got it from somewhere. hihihi.

ps;sorry if there any typo error, its dark here i cant see my keyboard clearly :P

love, AQ

this is how you teach your son!

so, got it parents/to-be?  we should be more serious about this. protect the girls and prevent the boys out there :)

i cry so badly when i hear&read this

here something i want to share.
its a conversation between a little girl with her father.
omg its like niagara falls in my room here

here it is :

It’s been a year daddy
I really really miss you
mommy says your in safe now 
in a beautiful place named heaven
we have your favorite dinner tonight
I ate it all up
even though i don’t like carrots
I learned how to swim this summer
I can even open my eyes when im under water
can’t you see me?

Istarted kindergarden this year
I carry around a picture of us in my blue’s clue’s lunch box
you are the greatest daddy
I can swing on the swing by myself
even though i miss you pushing me
can’t you see me?

I miss how you used to tickle me
tickle my belly
my belly hurts
I try not to cry
mommy says its ok
I know you dont like it when i cry
You never wanted me to be sad
I try daddy but it hurts
Is it true your not coming home?
Maybe some day, i can visit you in heaven, ok?

Its time for me to go to bed now
Isleep with the light on,just in case you come home 
and kiss me goodnight
Ilove you so much
Imiss you daddy 

its originally from here: http://www.america911.com/heaven-911.html

and now im crying again! *sobsobsob T-T

ITS BEEN SO LONG

it has been 2 months since my last post. sorry yaaa, hehehe. i've kinda busy this lately. and as usual, lotssss of thing had happened. first of all.

ME AND DANNY OFFICIALY OVER. 

i've waited for him about 8 months, then we're in official relationship for about 7 months. honestly, you're the one i ever spent this much time and effort on.

but as we know, nothing last forever. everything has an end, from forever now its over. 

yeah yeah yeah, actually i find out he cheated behind me. with 5 diff girls. seriously, he's a piece of crap full with shit. but nvm, its all over anyway.

oke done with danny.

my current crush is MAFP. i cant tell his full name here can i? hehe.

well, he's tall. i mean he's really tall. 180++ . in malaysia, thats super tall okay.

and its tall. you know how much i likes tall guy right. hehe. but when you're in love, damn, weight, distance, age is just a damn number. doesnt mean i dont like short guy at all. 

bla bla bla. yes i do stalk him a lot. when my mum didnt take my lappy away. HAHA.

lately she's kinda mean. i dont know why. yeah if i have anything latest about this tall guy i'll update for sure. hehee oke done with MAFP<3

ouh yeah, lately i involve with some volunteering work at MBA, puchong. seriously its so much fun! 

i make friend with lots of people. meet foreigner! seriously, i'd die to have this kind of experience all over again! omg i missed that moment so much :(

ouh yeah, just to mention, i cheerish our moment there,

DIYANA, SOFEA, KHALEEDA, DALILA, && ERIK N ANDRE WIJAYA.

not to forget TONY, JEROME, SHAH, MAFP (he was also there) KAMIL, HAFIZ, AJOI, SHAHRUL, AND ALL MY FRIEND INVOLVE. 

next, eventhought they kinda of annoying, credit to 

DIYANA, BELLA, AMIRUL, ZULHELMI, BUDI and so on.

and big big thank you,

Micheal's Badminton Academy

Lee family

KC, Pui, Aunty, Mr. Micheal  ♥

KC's Ukelele ♥

things come n go, but memory remains. ily and i cheerish the time we had ♥

Thanks for the memories :')

XOXO, going to miss you a lotssss, AQ ♥

OMG HILARIOUS!

i found this on my tumblr just now and fast a lightning i reblogged it. ROFLMAO bhahahahahhahahaah. cute at the same time! x)

you're no better :)

what a day! hehe. well today is one of my bestie birthday. so we celebrate it with eggs and powder! we're turning syaniza into a cake! haha :D anyway, happy sweet 16th syaniza :) may you have a great life.

next, soon after i got home i called danny. he picked up! yeay, finally? haha. we talked about 20 minutes. we talked a lot. i told him that i missed him. I MEAN IT OKAY. than blahblah loveydoveyy all the way then he ask what's his twitter name if i want a kiss from him. so as fast a lightning i grap my lappy, turn it on, connet to internet, favorite, there you go, nurz***. so im getting my kiss. hahahahhaa. GATAL kan? alah aku ckp je nnt ta brani jugak, malumalu siput babi la kate kan, hehe :D

then then then, i opened my fb account, check things out then i found someone that i admire. i cant tell his name, of course. i was thinking, should i add him, shouldn't i? should i, shouldn't i? then i change my DP picture, my new DP picture is superlicious okay! *sorry for self praising xD* then i add him. soon after, he approved me :D yeay! but i dont have the guts to say hi to him. you know me, im so malu malu siput babi or in broken english, shy shy snail. hahahaha. so nothing happen. ouh yea, i commented on nana's status, i said boyfriend come and go but friends remain with us. they he said yeah :D awww he gave feedback to my comment. he's so adorable. i like him. but i dont thinked we suit for each other. i do have some crazy behaviour going nuts and partying, enjoy and have fun. but im still the good girl type. but he is so social! so if we hooked up idk what will happen. hmmm then what should i do eh? any advise? :( ouh btw, he said on his status that he wants a loyal girlfriend. thats one thing boy, me? loyal? i can be loyal but not until i break up with danny. and how am i supposed to break up with him? i cant say it, although at some point i really do want to break up with him. haiyaaa, i can do it, but i have to wait danny to deactivate his fb account first or he might find out or this adorable guy will find out, i dont to be labelled as unloyal girlfriend do i? but but but, do i even has a chance with him? idk, haha :D

but i really do like that guy ya know, he's cute \(>.<)/

what should i do ehh? hmmmmm (-_____________-)


one last word, hell to MNFH aka gemok (=,=)
*

lalala~

lalala~  after 6 month realtionship! finally i have my first picture with danny. hehee :D

of course im happy, but but but i still hate him for doing this to me :( wtver, when i was snapping a pictue with him, amirul walk past us then saying out loud "kekasih gelap" damn him! hahaha i laughed, yet its true right? hmmm -________-

nvm about him. now about MNFH aka gemok whatsoever. i thinked im over him lorhh, but we not done yet. im going to toy him around for a while then im gonna dump him. i hope so, cuz i dont want to dump by him! so i'll make sure im gonna dump him first. hehee :D

i think thats it for now, its late now. actually im doing this only cuz im charging my mp3, now its fully charged and i wanna go to bed. night, sleep tight ya all who ever reading this although i dont think nobody will. haha :)

im like "WTF***! FAQIYUUU dudeee!"

F wordddddd!A thousand time F***!!!!!!i waste my tears for a scumbag jerky unmatured kambing guy,
watafakkkkk,now i feel sorry for her girlfriend ya knoww!

you know how long they've been dating? 3years 2 months! seriously, fuck you lah MNFH.
dude!! 3 years! and you cheat on her just like that? with me? ohgod. Ain, you just snatch someone's 3 years realtionship boyfriend.

no wonder la how much that guy likes me, still he stick with his gf, 3 years dudee that is some serious relationship. how many people around my age that've been in 3 years relationship? errr i mean like, zero, no one. at all. goshhh this is serious. how eh, that guy, aiyoyooo, what am i? a boyfriend snatcher? errrr aku ta nk la jadik perampas smpai cmtu punye lame enn, hancur lulur halilintar hati wo aku pun rasa mcm nk mati if im her shoes.

errrrrrr what should i do? i pitied herrr :((((( but i likes him. hah ain! nk dibanding kan suka kaw tu kt dy dgn awek dy, kaw punye feelink tu besa kuman celah kuku je kottt. this is wrong, i should stop. urghhhh but how? :( adoi adoi adoi, poor anis, i cant imagine if she finds out about her loveydovey trustworthy boyfriend =,= *tgn dibahu mata ke ats.

what should i do? hmmmmmmm. adoi adoi adoi. i mean, HE. DONT. DESERVE. HER. come on laaa, perempuan baek mcm tuuu, ptt dpt laki baek laaa. laki yg bole setia, dipercayai, bukan mcm mamat nihh. girlfrind cpl 3 tahon bole maen iloveyou2 ngn aku, ape punye sial dehhh, klau aku tahu mmg dari awal aku ta kn layan dy. sbb aku sorang mamat nie nk curang kt awek dy 3 tahun? hey boy, seriously, im not worth it. believe me. mayb we can hook up but but but, im pretty sure WE. WONT. LAST. LONG. hidup nie muda lg babe, kaw dgn anis tu, kaw trus la hantar rombongan meminang kay, ta yah buat dosa lama2. cpl skit punya lama then curang. dasar lelaki. MEN ARE ALL SAME =,=

sudah la aku mencurang kan danny, aku still cpl lg dgn danny okay. sume stok jantan ta guna je. ehh siall lhaaa. pigi mampusss. bole jalan lah weyyy, nk maen game sgt en? jom jom jom kita maennn, tp jgn harap aku bagi muka *yelatu ainnn -___- aku akan pasti kan, perasaaan aku kt dy cukup untuk buad maen kt dy je, okay MNFH :)

FUCK UNWORTHY ALL OVER THE WORLD THAT CHEAT ON THEIR GIRLFRIEND.
marriage is one thing, is Islam you can married to 4 women if you can afford it. but in realtionship, its all about trust and loyal.


Ps; urgghhhh act i want to talk about my birthday and how he wished me. but i opened anis's twitter and i saw she tweeted that they have been together for 3 years 2 months. i get mad and post for my birthday is nowhere and here i am with caci maki sumpah seranah semua. you guys know right when im mad i;ll speak in malay. haha nah, here you go :) i thinks thats all for today, i wanna go eat my leftover birthday cake. secret recipe okay! yum yum! heheee. im going chillin' see ya later, byee :)

Finger Cross tommorow!

finger cross finger cross finger cross! >.<
tmrow last date insyaAllah :)
im not gonna cry, i hope.

last date,
then my birthday on 4/4
i hope he'll wish me,
then i'll say my farewell.

so wish the best for me *teary eye, bitter smile :')
caiyok caiyok, aja aja fighting! ain you can do it,
i know you're a strong girl *iskiskiskisk

ily MNFH, if we're meant to be, we are meant to be.
kalau lah jodoh, tak kan ke mana.

Sunset Glow

the sun sets, without you i become saddened by the sunset glow </3

Why did you abandoned me?

I didn’t believe, that you just up and left.

I’m feelin’ so depressed.
It’s like my whole world’s been crushed.

What should I do if you just disappeared now?
I knew that this wasn’t meant to last for long.
What ever happened to our precious love?
Now, we’re just everywhere.
But I just can’t let you go.

I put everything on the line just be with you.
The only thing I’ve got is you, so don’t go anywhere else.
But you went ahead and left me.
My heart’s still here, breaking.

You know that you’re the one I’ve been looking for.
It would be nice, playing and having fun.
But it turned out that I really wanted you.
Now that you’re not with me, why can’t I just forget you?

You’re a really bad boy, if you left me, you’d leave my world.
I’m wondering why I, don’t care if I would die.
You’re a really, really bad boy.
Where did you go?

I know I was foolish then, cause I was just abandoned.
Could it be that you’ve got someone else?
My heart’s hurting for you,
Your selfish actions screwed me up.
The love that you had in your heart, I see it’s gone, there’s no more me.
Fool, why was I so blind to see?

Reminds me of you :(

It doesn't matter what I say, don't matter what I do
Every little thing reminds me of you
It gets harder every day, I don't know what to do
Every little thing reminds me of you

is this really then end for us?

i never had then chance to tell you how i really feel.

the memory of us,

now every little thing reminds me of you.

SUPERMAN</3

DEPRESSED

I AM SO HEARTBROKEN THAT IM GOING NUTS I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF WHATS GOING ON WITH MY LIFE EVERYBODY IS LEAVING ME AM I WORTHLESS IS THAT SO I AM SO DEPRESSED LIKE WHAT SHOULD I DO OH MY GOD I DONT WANT THIS WHAT I WANT AND NEED IS JUST SOME HAPPINESS AND BEING LOVES IM SO TIRED OF THIS SHIT FUCK EVERYTHING THAT DONT BELONG HERE WHY DID YOU DO THID TO ME I DONT DESERVE THIS WHAT ARE YOU DOING STOP PLEASE HOW HAVE I WRONGED YOU I HATE YOU THAT I LOVE YOU PIECE OF A SHIT PLEASE STOP YOURE HURTING ME YOU SON OF A BITCH Please come back to me i need you, </3

Goodbye Gemok&Tembam III

To you who left without a word
Can you hear my tears right now


This lonely morning I woke up without you
After you left, the compass of the map in my heart
Has lost its way, my life was all ruined
I was unprepared, yet you still ran far away from me


My Venus, I've prayed to God to try to hate you
Because it was so unfair, because my life felt so miserable
My tone, actions, even my steps have gone away
My habits that have copied yours are bothering me
You can't be forgotten, how can I forget you?
You're on the first page of all of my memories


Even if in my craziness I feel sad I'll try to smile
I don't want your empty feelings, we're just too late
Uh if it's yours, if you're going to do whatever you want
This is the way you love? 


The time I had with you was so hard
Everyday, I waited for you by my phone
It was great when we first met
We were happy just seeing each other
Actually, I'm still like that, but why aren't you?

The memories with you were so hard
Of course it may be my fault, I'll probably comfort myself like this
When time goes by, this memory will be like smoke too
Fly far away, a new love may find me too


I wanted to see your face one last time
But till the end, there's no answer from you
Oh why are you avoiding me? Please tell me


But I love you, 
I wish you would stay here
I wish you would hold onto me
even if I don't say it
Please don't lose my eager heart 


please come back to me? :(
</3

Goodbye Gemok&Tembam II

my heart singing :

I feel so empty since you left me

I Wanna see your face,

It's like... I don't even know how to explain

You see what I'm sayin’ 

The memories of our love hold me back

The words that used to be sweet make me cry

Even before telling you not to go

You already turned away from me

If I could turn back the time that had passed

If that only meant that you would stay with me

I'm content with that forever

Even though a day passed, even though a month passed, time is meaningless

Although I lift up the receiver and hear you, I only hang up without being able to say a word

How can I say that I'll forget you too?

My heart is so anxious

Please don't leave me baby

Even if I remain as a fool with only tears

I can't forget you at all

Maybe I can't help it

And every night, again tears baby

Will you come back to me?

In the end, I look at a picture of us, not being able to throw it away

If it's not you, I probably won't love again

I don't want to and I can't

If it's not you now, it can't happen

Please come back here

Thank you for having made me happy

I'm sorry for not letting you love me

Even giving each other our hearts isn't possible anymore

Even when I die, I'll only love you

Even if it hurts I'll wait just for you

Just come back to me by then

I only love you </3

Goodbye Gemok&Tembam :(

Special for MNFH, aka MokkPelatt.

dear do you know, i really miss you right now

i wipe off tears with my head down, i call your name

did you really have to leave me like this

my head hurts when i think about you

you are a sickness. i lie down everyday, how many times has it been?

i will forget for a bit tomorrow then i will think of you again day after tomorrow

what can i do, my love is still valid

i believe that you will come back, i wait for you only

i love you,  you are the world to me

i scream out loud but only the answerless sunset continues to burn

 if you are feeling sorry or afraid of seeing my face

don't worry, if it's you, i feel strong

 your face that i miss looks like that sunset glow thus i feel sadder

oh baby baby please don't forget about all of past times, memories we shared

i will run to you anytime if you call me silently with your eyes closed

every day, every night i need you

i won't be able to see your beautiful visage anymore

but i have no regret, just burn bright so i can just gaze at you

 the sun rises, the sun sets, i become saddened by the sunset glow

the moon rises, the moon sets, i become dull too, as time passes by

Happy or Sad? :D / :(

hollaa,

heyhoyletsgo! *ramones's x) okay actually today already 3months i hooked up with danny. happy? yeah cuz i get to talk to him a LOT today. and he ask me out, this friday! :) hehehehhehehehe, location: The Mines! im hopingggg, please please please, the plan must go on! i really want this date just me and him :(     you know why?   

I CRAVE YOUR ATTENTION

 okayy, enough of danny. okay now the most sad things of this week is.

 DAMN!! i lost my most precious mp3 :((((((((

 i am so freaking kicking hurting sad. i really love my sony walkman mp3 :( its all my brother's fault! he is so careless. he lefted my precious mp3 in the bus. and now my mp3 is forever gone :(  my mom said she'll buy me a new one, still it wont be the same as my lost mp3. unless my mom buy me a new adition of sony walkman mp4, hohohohoho. but but but, i'll still be sad of my lost.  Rest in peace, my red mp3 sony walkman. you'll always be in my heart.

 Today, to my late sony walkman,



I'd Like to say my Farewell,

All this time, you have served me well, i give you credit of distinction. eventhought we have been together for not so long, and we event didnt get to celebrate your first birthday, you mean much to me, because of you, i've gain a lots lots of memories with my love one, thank you. i even dont have a picture of you :( your lost is a has a huge  effect on me. I cried for you and I'll be missing you. So long, my final goodbye for you.  

RIP, ps; iloveyou :(

Cutieeeeee x)

it is SO CUTEEEEEEEEEE <33333333333333333
i found this on my tumblr. it is so cuteeeee. i wish i'll have a baby like that. i want to cuddle him every second. kyahhhh xD

Long time no see :D

hollaaaa! urghh its been so long since my last post. hehehe. so many things happened since my last post. now i hooked with danny already. but. BUT. he didnt break with er***. YET. i'll make sure he will. for sure! idk. i really pissed off with me. he didnt treat me like the way he should! fine i'll do whatever i want since u dont really care.

lalalalla land~ haha. dont really know what to say. haha okay. lets just talk about danny. he's the one that asked me to be his girlfriend. 28th november 2011<3  hehehe, yeah im happy that he asked me, at least i know that want to be with me. but now i dont know. he has a phone, but but but! i thinked he texted me only like 5 times! urghhhh that jerk is a jerk.

still, i love him :( i really do. i've been single for more than a year, then you came. i never really want to be in relationship. but if its you, i'd be more than happy to be with you. but do you feel the same way too? only god know i guess. if you is in love with two girl, then you should be fair you know. thats not a way to treat a girl.

iskisk, what should i do? i cant let him keep doing this to me. it hurts so much. haishhhh. dont know lahhh. but one thing you should know.

If you love two people at the same time,

Choose the second one,

because if you really loved the first one,

you wouldn't have fallen for the second

it is so true! danny, pick one pick one. just let me go if you dont love me anymore. so i can move one. i dont want to stuck in the memories of you. i'll hang on a bit more, but it has limit. okay? iloveyou, ireallydo ANZY<3 *aka danny.